laugh:)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

It's not true that I didn't let go of the stretcher that you were on during the last day because I perserve. I didn't let go of it because if I allow myself to let it slip through my hands, I should not have came to the camp in the first place. Because if I let go of it, I will break down everything that look so neat on me. If I let go of you, I renege my promise. I can't face myself. I can travel another metre, another kilometre, another and another... The destination can be invisible, depressing and hopeless. But if I were to ever, ever let go of the you, I'll make sure my motionless rotted body lie flat beneath you.

I'm sorry but I cannot be in Singapore on the post-Christmas day. I will be on a trip to South Korea. It is a fault on my part for failing to envisage this situation. But if I were to shift my trip to smother the camp, I know I will let you down to a bigger extent. I really hope to get you an appropriate gift though.

Studies before squad, you before me.

Fighting for Victory 2:53 AM

Friday, November 06, 2009

I squandered the hopes but I have scintilla of regret.
Its pleasing to see you appearing again and again from my back into my face when I barely finished a single round of the race.
Its poignant but predicted.

Someone is competing, but I will not smear the friendship.
But neither will I change my sight.
The infatuation shall not weaken but turn more robust.
It never will(weaken), though I am not sure of the future me.
There is always some things that is encraved in the innermost that cannot be touched till the brain no longer has the ability to store it, to preserve it, to defend it.

I can only force myself to let the competitor win if he can convince me
that I ought to let go. And its hard(to convince).
Take care of the remaining rounds/competitions because I am still in them.

Its poignant but predicted.

Fighting for Victory 11:28 PM

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

There're few things that derail me from my composure during examinations. These few things have to be avoided at all cost with personal and emotional sentiments holding not a scintilla of weight. I did involuntarily take glances though.

Fighting for Victory 7:41 AM

Friday, September 18, 2009

The ultimate secreted and still unrevealed mental activities in me
I can speak of them to anyone I desire
but there's only one I want to relate to.

Fighting for Victory 8:31 PM

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Tomorrow's the national day celebration, I am so excited. To me, there is nothing more important than my country, Singapore. I am pathologically patriotic. Without Singapore, there will not be me, without me, there will not be Singapore. Being a Singaporean is something to sport and boost of. We got the Merlion here, which can bletch water, how cool is that? Singapore is indubitably the best country I have ever lived in!

There's no trace of any direct verbal conversation between us today. I didn't and can't mutter a single word to you. Maybe it's my incapability to manipulate the "sinister" and exhausting pressure in which I have yet to recover from...

Fighting for Victory 1:06 AM

Thursday, July 09, 2009

Similar to going out in winter to search for firewood, to post at such an unfavourable time.
Not much stuff today, just a geography performance task given and the rest are trifles and handleable. While, this is a micro-endeavour to preserve this blog.

Fighting for Victory 2:17 AM

Friday, July 03, 2009

最近情绪颓废。缘由或许是最近听着TANK的《如果我变成回忆》
不禁联想到未来在这间校园的我
也许，或许，可能吧
未来会遇到比予更好的人
对你愈加好，爱你愈加深，比我愈加完美吧
若有人可以
让他给你你该有的幸福
我不怪你
是我太差

发型颇好看

Fighting for Victory 5:02 AM